Young and Dumb

As For 2008

2008-12-09T12:36:00.003-05:00

I'm signing out ya'll. I won't be back on 'til 2009. Got a lot of plans and in the words of my sister: Surprise, Surprise!!!

Mums FP New New

2008-12-09T12:03:00.005-05:00

Early Christmas Present for all. New Mums FP. He sent me the new new for 2009.

6 in the morning feat. Gripalaz Hood

Lemonade

Hey Girl with London

Unsigned Artist Tip #2

2008-12-09T11:54:00.002-05:00

Before I head back to the motherland, I gotta put ya'll on to some more unsigned artists tips.

-Being different, freaky, weird, extra quiet, all that stuff does qualify for your music being HOT. When people ask "Why should I like your music?" or stuff like that, your reply should not be, "Because it's different." Different is not an answer just like "Swagger" isn't the answer to describe how someone looks. You don't have to compare yourself or your music, but you can create adjectives and put them together accordingly to explain what your music is supposed to do for people and how you feel it changes the game.

* For example, if someone asked me why I think my writing is hot, I'd reply saying that I flow words together so well that any reader can relate to what the information I'm relaying to the public. I take some people back, and put some people forward with the way I explain things through my writing. Something like that.

Some Unsigned Artists Tips

2008-11-28T12:35:00.002-05:00

After going to the Black Student Alliance Fashion Show, I noticed a lot of things during the unsigned artists performances. Unsigned artists are so confused. Working at Ozone, I learned a lot about unsigned artists and their performances. Your performance is everything!!! Cause it determines your stage presence and that is very important. Here's a tip:

- Leave your homeboys offstage. I, nor the people who are trying to sign you, nor the audience, are trying to see your homeboys on stage attempting to rap with you and no mic in hand. It's very unprofessional and not attractive to your performance. You want to keep the attention on you, not anything your crew is doing on stage. That's how you create a stage presence that an audience cannot resist.

I might hit ya'll with some more tips throughout the blog. Cause I'm sure ya'll need it.

Q-Tip x The Cool Kids x Janelle Monae = Great Footage for the Blog!!!!

2008-11-26T18:16:00.013-05:00

I went to the Q-Tip concert at Centerstage on Monday night. Cuties were definitely in the building and I got great footage!!! Check it out.

Janelle set it off. Check out the video.

The Cool Kids are so cute. Especially Mickey. Oh yeah he can get it. He's gonna be on my 'Sexy Can I' in a minute.

And Q-Tip really got down. But due to my sister buying me cheap batteries for my new digicam, the footage on Q-Tip was real slim. Sorry guys. He did a little thing for J. Dilla(RIP) and then went into The Renaissance album, which ya'll need to buy or already have on deck. It was a great show and worth all of my $27, especially since I'm jobless right now!!!!

Hope ya'll enjoy and see you at the next event!

I'm Late

2008-11-20T15:38:00.004-05:00

Flobots - No Handlebars

The haters at Universal disabled the embed code for this video. My 'ol homegirl's homey put me on to Flobots two months ago. Check them out, I'm sure you'll like them. Like a lame, I missed their concert here in the ATL due to lack of funds. But get up on your music people. I'm not gonna tell you again.

SOLEDAD!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-17T17:49:00.002-05:00

The baddest chick on CNN(right above my homegirl LOLA) was at my school today. The creator of documentaries like "Children of the Storm" and "Black in America", she is a really great speaker and a good person. Her documentaries are very touching. Her latest documentary "Escape from Jonestown," has really touched me. I mean I haven't seen it quite yet, but being I'm down with Soledad, I already know where she's going with it. Also, I am very familiar with the Jim Jones story and other cults. My brother is in a cult and I don't really talk to him anymore. So ever since he joined the cult I've done serious research on them because I want to be very aware of those type of things. She gave me her email, so hopefully when I email her, she will get a chance to email me back. Holla.

It's A Wrap (For Taco Mac)

2008-11-16T22:48:00.002-05:00

I quit. That's it. On to the next. I will look for a job when I come back from Nigeria. So long folks.

I Bet We Can All Thank God

2008-11-05T09:59:00.002-05:00

this didn't happen.

Seent it @ The Rezidue

And Since She Did....

2008-11-05T09:53:00.003-05:00

We have a beautiful Black family in the White House. Thanks to everyone who voted.

Nobody was looking....

2008-11-05T09:47:00.003-05:00

Fux the bull. Ya'll know Sarah voted for Barack.

Sooner Than Later

2008-10-27T17:24:00.005-04:00

I gotta give it to Drake. He is that ish. I heard this song a long time ago and since I've been busy; my Drake banging has been real weak. Anyways, he can get the 'Sexy Can I' for the month. I been slipping on that too....Holla!

Oh, what you drinking on? You know I'm a bartender..... =p

Get your 'Sexy Can I' on.....

Lately...

2008-10-22T13:46:00.009-04:00

I haven't hit up the blog lately cause I've been working me. ME ME ME ME ME and not YOU. Lol. But anyways, you guys are gonna see some changes soon. In fact, some people are already seeing changes, but here are some things I'm working on.

I go to Georgia State University now. I miss Clayton, but things are a lot better for me over here. I have a lot of opportunities and I'm getting out of my comfort zone. I'm studying more than ever and getting better grades(except that one mass comm class in the summer). Ya'll would be so proud.

I am in different organizations at school that promote female empowerment, community service, support for journalists, and music industry professional aspirants. Hopefully I will be a leader in these organizations very soon. I love college, so I'm moving slow so I don't graduate on time.(LOL!!)

And lastly, I've been working on making my dreams come true. Getting to know the right people and getting things started for the new year. Everyone's whining about the economy and how bad it is. It is bad, but you can still make things happen!!!

The Real Ghetto Housewives of ATL

2008-10-14T17:42:00.004-04:00

This show is really sad. The fact that majority of these women are truly broke and they are flaunting around Atlanta is a damn shame. This show is for the life of Bankhead residents who will never realize the truth in reality TV. Because they are the only ones who will believe these women have money and are running around Atlanta spending money on $500 purses and stuff.

Keith Sweat ex-wife broke, but her husband could get it.
The white chick wishes she was black and is dating a married man.
Sheree broke and won't acknowledge all her children.
The other chick who just bought the house seems a little ditzy.
And Nene, my god you know she straight from Dixie Hills. She's a gold digger too.

Anyways, I won't be regularly watching this show, but I may tune in sometimes. It's more sad to me than entertaining. Here's a video of the women on some red carpet. All of a sudden they're friends for the limelight. Boy what reality tv does to people. I will hit ya'll up later with some more of ME. Holla.

Sophia Fresh

2008-10-12T10:57:00.002-04:00

I love this song. I like this group. Something new for 2008, going into 2009. What ya'll think? Holla.

Racist Comment of the Day

2008-10-09T14:53:00.002-04:00

I meant to post this Racist Comment of the Day back on Sunday night when it happen, but if you would've known the events that took place 24 hours before then...well that's for another time. Soooo here's how it all went down, at Team Taco of course:

A white woman who is the manager to several hip hop artists (at least that's what I was told) came into Taco Mac Sunday night. She was with some other white guy. She's "hood" according to herself. She was on the patio, surrounded by a white couple and numerous african american individuals. She was sitting at a table with my coworkers that were off and drinking and another white customer. Here's the conversation:

"What's up my niggas?" she says.
Laughing from my black coworkers ensues.
"I mean them my niggas. Niggas, niggas, niggas...."

You get where I'm going with this. So basically, the white woman keeps saying the word nigga, gets jacked up by the black women that were sitting a couple tables over, and APD comes out. I hope her artists tell her to watch her mouth next time.

This Is What Happens When You Get On My Bad Side

2008-10-08T11:44:00.003-04:00

I saw my ex-boyfriend of 2 years on the train the other day. He stole $500 from my family, lied about it, then expected me to get him out of jail. Sheeeiiiiidddd.

Anyways, he was with like 8 girls and he kept looking at me. I was hoping he would come over there so I could literally beat him to an early death. I'm sorry if you feel I'm harsh, but you'd have to hit me up to get the details on that relationship.

So the next day he hit me up on facebook like "you cant speak?"

Well this is what I replied him. Enjoy.

"It very unfortunate you're still alive cause i've had high hopes that you were dead. I don't see any use for some1 like u here. And if you would've came up to me on the train yesterday, i would've punched u n stomped ur face into the ground. So i suggest u keep away 4rm me."

My sister says I should have replied with this instead:

"You're a useless being that doesn't exist in my world and if happened that you slipped through the cracks, I would destroy every fiber of you so that you would know better next time."

However, this negro is an illiterate lil boy that does not have a diploma and wants to be a rapper. Always claiming the westside. All that is beyond me. I leave ya'll with Jasmine Sullivan. It's a nice video.

Jasmine Sulivan "Bust Your Windows"

Niggas Ain't S**t featuring The Philosophies of Lee

2008-09-30T09:42:00.004-04:00

This is very old, I actually wrote this back in April and I haven't said the phrase ever since. It's part of the change I'm trying to go through and be a better person. Finding a good guy to rock with me, starting a new institution, making sure my grades are higher than ever before, and be the the best writer I can be. =)

I am not gonna say niggas ain't shit anymore. I have been putting a lot of thought into that phrase. Is it me or is it them? I'd like to say it is both. I am beginning to understand that there are several reasons women say men ain't shit(and vice versa):

1. Men/Women do not take care of their responsibilities concerning themselves or elsewhere, causing unnecessary conflict
2. The sex is unsatisfying
3. They do something that makes them feel unhappy and angry
4. They play games with your feelings

Of course there are other reasons, but I am not gonna get into all of that. I sometimes wish all this bullshit I experience with niggas now happened in high school; however, I am in my second year of college and dealing with niggas who wanna sex you in your room and look dumb at you on the outside(in public). I am grown. I pay my own bills. I worked three jobs, ran cross-country, and went to school full-time. I do not have time for niggas who think they are better than me or can treat me any kind of way because they feel they have accomplished more or hold a higher level of stature than me. I work just as hard as the next person. This is 2008. The United States is in a recession. Gas is $4.00. This ain't the time for you to be in my face hollering HONEY and SWEETHEART, then have no care for my feelings when we out in the street. Certain niggas want you to open up and tell them about your past. After keeping your guard up FOREVER, you let it down only to be messed over. Dude, it is a very simple philosophy: Don't start nothing you can't finish. Let me say it again, DON'T START ANYTHING YOU CANNOT FINISH RIGHTFULLY!!!

Alot of people say that I am mean (mostly guys). Anyone who truly knows me, down to the core, knows that I was really really nice a few years ago. I was not someone who always said something mean or rude. I was a lot more positive than negative. I never was random like I am now. And I was not as outspoken about people and how they made me feel. Well, some stuff went down and now I'm just real. Lee always tells me that people, more dudes than guys, say I'm mean because I say NO. With that said, I am just wondering: Am I mean because I will not have sex with you on the first night or am I mean because I will not have sex with you on the 25th night?

Let me conclude this, I promise I am not gonna say niggas ain't shit no more. I promise. If you hear me say it (and it’s not regarding this note or something profound) I give you permission to slap me…on the leg. Lee says boys push you in the dirt, kick sand in your face, and put gum in your hair. Then they walk around claiming they like you. With that said, I am gonna state again that I'm grown. So since I am grown, I'ma need you to act grown too and be about your shit.

My New Favorite Song

2008-09-30T09:05:00.003-04:00

I love this song ONLY because it shouts out my high school. The dance is kind of cute, I would do it cause it's fun. I love to have fun. Granted the video sucks butthole but I can appreciate anyone who shouts out Stephenson jaguars and reps DA MOUND!!! Check 3:53 for the SHS shoutout.

Home of Some of The Best Freestyles

2008-09-28T13:13:00.002-04:00

Rap city is being cancelled. Thank God, cause after Big Tigger left, it wasn't that great. I leave ya'll with one of my favorite freestyles from one of my favorite new rapper that R.E. put me on to. =)

Info spotted @ Candys Rayne

Black Events 1

2008-09-28T12:48:00.003-04:00

There's nothing better than good ol' HBCU football on a Saturday afternoon. Famu won!!! Go Rattlers!!!! The bands were kinda wack. TSU was very wack. Well, it was nice and all, but BLACK PEOPLE!!!! We have got to better. There were so many things that happened at the game that I know wouldn't happen at a Kell vs. Clemson game. My God.

-There were movie previews on the jumbo screen.
-They prayed before the game started.
-There were over 100 people on the field. The presidents of each school had entourage like a mothafucka.
-There were dance contests, giveaways, and the damn greeks were strolling up and down the damn dome. I am never seen so many ol' school greeks in my life. Jerseys and all. (I don't think they had jackets back then) Shout out to THE PAPER GREEK STORE.

These are things that could only happen at a black event. It was still fun. Sometimes I wish I went to am hbcu, but I feel I'm actually better off. Holla.

The Only 1 In Atlanta....

2008-09-28T12:44:00.003-04:00

who is NOT buying T.I. cd, Paper Trail. No real disrepect. I just haven't really been a super-T.I. fan since Urban Legend. I'm only on my Kanye now. =)

BB9 Review

2008-09-22T11:53:00.006-04:00

The 95.5 The Beat Birthday Bash was terrible. I've been to the past three birthday bashes and they were really good. However, this year, 95.5 The Beat went straight to hell. I wanted to see David Banner and Gorilla Zoe perform. I just wanted to see all the other entertainers make a fool of themselves. And they did just that.

1. Bob performance looked a mess. But Playboy Tre is still my nigga and he owe me a shirt. Shoutouts to him for doing my song "Nite Life".
2. Gorilla Zoe did great. Shoutouts to Tahira for the interview. =) 'Lost' is my shit.
3. Oh Lil Scrappy brought out his thirty homeboys from Zone 6 and his girl Diamond from Crime Mob. Enough said.
4. Soulja Boy actually had the best performance of the night. He brought out VIC, and he made a fool of himself. Then he did the inevitable, he brought ou Lil Bow Wow. Me no like him.
5. Flo-Rida was hell!!! As usual, he had he thirty man entourage on deck. Sadly, I sat through it so I could see David Banner.
6. David Banner did not perform. What a set-up!! (refer to question 5)

Next year, I'm not going unless I get another press pass. On the bright side, I looked really HOT!!!

I'm loving TABOO, and I don't mean the game

2008-09-19T00:54:00.005-04:00

A little on the older side but....he could still getitinnow!!!!!

Classic

2008-09-15T22:41:00.003-04:00

I loved N.E.R.D. since the beginning. I slept on their second album. I didn't mean it. =( Anyways, this song by N.E.R.D. is soooooo classic. It's on their first album, In Search Of..... This is the video put to a live performance. Like I told my music editor, Randy Exclusive, lol, I'm not good with audio links. I'm learning guys. Until then, enjoy my share of YouTube videos. Holla.

For All My Broke MFs....

2008-09-13T03:04:00.004-04:00

Anyone who knows me, knows I cannot keep a job unless it's a writing position. I'm always looking to better myself. Anyways, I always got the scoop on who's hiring. So for all my broke folk who need a job in this dire economy crisis, Bloomingdales is hiring. Here's all the info:

Join us for a Mix & Mingle job reception on
Tuesday, September 16th, 2008
5:00-8:00pm HR Training room 2nd floor
please bring a copy of your resume.
Please rsvp to Pashion Whales, HR Manager Perimeter, pashion.whales@bloomingdales.com

For those who may not know any better, Bloomingdales is a more expensive version of Macys. Dress like you have a sense of fashion and act like you know what your talking about. I've never been to this type of hiring experience, so if anyone goes, please tell me about it. I can't go because I am going back to the motherland for a month. No holiday jobs for me this year. =( Peace

Black People

2008-09-13T02:50:00.003-04:00

Black people. I now refer to you as coloreds. I am truly sick of ya'll coming into Taco Mac and wasting my time. What don't you understand about an 18-20 percent tip. You run around the restaurant like I'm your little sister or brother, try every hookup you can, and laugh loud as hell a if you have no sense.

I'm sorry. I'm not racist, but you coloreds make me sick. Do not tip me $5 on a $140 tab. That is not appropriate and is disrespectful. I do not appreciate you having the audacity to tip me the minimum you think I deserve because you're confused about your role in society. All that I ask is if you do not want to tip someone, do not eat in a restaurant. Stay home. Even if it is late and you want to go out, Taco Mac is not Waffle House. You need to go home, sober up, and cook some food. Cause after tonight, any inappropriate tips will get tossed right back to yo ass. I'm gonna have to bring back Hollywood Slimm from Pleasers and she will show you how it's done. See ya.

Ain't This The Truth?

2008-09-13T02:45:00.003-04:00

This is a hilarious video about texting after a drunk night out. Don't flex, cause you know this is you! I hated to admit it, but people do find texting easier than talking on the phone. However, the problem with texting is you cannot see someone's expression or know their tone. That can cause a lot of conflict, because you never know how to truly respond. How ya'll feel? Holla. =)

Seent it @ The Rezidue

Fly like Paper, Get High Like Planes!!!

2008-09-12T00:48:00.004-04:00

Sri-Lanka artist, M.I.A., is the originator of "Swagga Like Us". She's very controversial because she's from the Middle East and she's an entertainer. Basically, people think she's a terrorist. That chick is like 31 years old. There is no entertainer cut off for females I figure. She's a little bit of a bad bitch but she does look like she could commit a suicide bombing....Let me know what you think about her.

I Love Hip Hop

2008-09-11T23:37:00.003-04:00

I was listening to all my Kanye, Talib, Q-Tip tonight. I was listening to a lot of more people but I was blasting them. Man, I love Hip Hop. It's like a man that I can't get enough of. He talks about me one second, but he wants me so bad shortly after. I can't help it. Yeah, I hate alot of what he has to offer, but he does have that so many other thing that keeps me coming back. His lyrics, flow, passion, and look. I wouldn't know what I'd do without Hip Hop. He's my everything. I listen to(fuck with) a lot of dudes(genres), but if I were to lose all those other guys, as long as I had my man Hip Hop. I'd be good....ain't that right Cudi? =)

Yes, This Is Your Crew Too!

2008-09-11T17:55:00.003-04:00

I was watching Aqua Teen Hunger Force at my best friend Azza's house. I started to notice the similar qualities in the Hunger Force that me and my best friends have. Azza is Master Shake aka Shake(which she can do). This video describes her perfectly.

My other best friend Terrica is Frylock. Ironically, Terrica loves fries...somewhat. Here is her video that describes her. Sorry it's so long. Watch as much as you feel.

and this is me. Good ol' Meatwad.

Everyone has best friends like this. It's actually pretty funny.

Racist Comment of the Day

2008-09-11T11:43:00.004-04:00

My music editor put me on these dudes on his Wednesday Afternoon Fuckery. I thought it was pretty interesting because at Team Taco, the white people make black jokes all the time and the blacks laugh...until they get fired for some bullshit, call corporation them white managers, and get EEOC involved because now they believe it was racism. It's all funny until you get handed the pink slip.

the KID shuts it down

2008-09-11T02:25:00.003-04:00

Oh I can't wait to get that. =)

Racist Comment(s) of the Day

2008-09-07T03:00:00.005-04:00

I was supposed to start this new segment about a month ago when I was talking with a co-worker at Team Taco about oreo cookies.

"The black oreo cookies leave a bad taste in my mouth. That's why I buy the white cookies. You know, the golden oreos?"

That was the comment I recall I said. Oh, how racist of me; however, I digress.

So today, we were watchin the Ultimate Champion fights at Team Taco. They were taking place right next door at Phillips Arena. The last fight of the night, at 12 am was between some white guy and a black guy. The fight everyone was waiting for. So the conversation amongst the a set of diverse coworkers and customers went like this. No names included just catch the racist comments from Blacks and Whites alike.

"The black guy gonna beat the dogshit out of that white guy. I keep telling my friends, but they don't wanna listen. How do I know? I done got my ass beat by plenty of Black guys!"
"Black people can't fight."
"Hell nah Black people can't fight. All they gonna do is pull out a gun and pop yo ass!"
"Whateva man. The black guy finna win."
"No he ain't."

"Damnnnn! He got knocked the fuck out!"
"I told ya'll he was gonna get his ass beat by th black guy. I told ya!"
"Aww damn that's fucked up."
"Well they leaving now. We should get a little rush from them. They gonna drink."
"Uh-oh. Aww shit. They not coming in!"
"It's cause the nigger won."
"Si. El negro."
"Damnit, why did the black guy have to win?"
"Would I be racist if I said that I wish the Black guy had fell from victory?"

makes me feel like a KID again

2008-09-04T17:19:00.004-04:00

Oh he can get it.....all day...everyday....5 times on Sunday =)

Truth Hurts

2008-09-04T00:48:00.003-04:00

Damn Girl!!!!

2008-09-02T16:59:00.004-04:00

What a way to start off the RNC!!! Palin's daughter has been infiltrated and now she is pregnant! The strategy McCain had going clearly is going to fall through. I discussed the whole teen pregnancy months ago on this blog. I am not in any way going to judge her, cause clearly it's not my biz. But geewilikers, I wonder how women are thinking now? Either women will vote Republican because they are single mothers or because they are just so high-strung on the fact that a woman will be in office that they cant help it. Well for those women who think like that, I need you to create a well-made noose and hang yourself. Because if you vote Republican and you are not part of that wonderful ELITE that isn't suffering anyway, you will continue to suffer as you are now. =) Godsped.

I'm Fresh!

2008-08-28T12:47:00.001-04:00

My dougie

She say she like my dougie

I'm fresh

My dougie

I'm fresh

Flyer than a motherfucker

Lil' Wil

My Dougie

Dolla$ TX

Soulja Boy finally learned how to do 'My Dougie'. I can appreciate that. I really love this dance cause it's from HOME. Enjoy!

Can I Get A Blog About The Yard Please?

2008-08-27T20:36:00.001-04:00

What would you give
and what would it take
for you to show me that
I'm worth all the love
Every tear
Will you fight for me until you win
I need to know
Am I worth it?

Heather Headley

Am I Worth It?

In My Mind

So we begin with a story about two kids going around and asking to mow your lawn? Finally, they get a job that they believe is worth $30. As a server who is big on generous tipping, I believe they were worth $50 cause they are kids trying to get a hustle. =)

The PAYER does not believe they were worth $50, so they will get the $30 they quoted for the whole yard being mowed in the beginning. Don't worry I'm going somewhere with this.

So they begin to mow, working hard, doing well. When they finish the back yard, they come to the door and ask for an extra $10. Why? I don't know. Cause clearly we all know the PAYER and she ain't no generous tipper or whatnot. But I digress....

So me, believing they were worth $50 somehow sparked a conversation of how people should not be considered worth any amount of $$$ because God does not put a price on someone when they are created. Society puts a price on everything. Relationships=therapy. Family=hanna montana. Church=world changers(and I don't mean just your offering and tithes). No matter the situation you're gonna pay somehow. Even the IRS/Government puts a price on you. My parents told me I was worth at $2500 in tax refund money. Ain't that messed up(besides the fact I gets none of that)?!

With that said, don't put a price on everything. Be cautious of what you consider costly. Because everything is worth SOMETHING, just not always that green. Holla!

Oh Usain...Let Me Sing To You!!! Lol

2008-08-26T11:08:00.001-04:00

Oh I can't believe it
Ooo ooo he all on me
Man man I think he want me
And I can't leave him lonely naw
Ya'll don't understand he make the people say yeah
Yeah
Yeah
He hit the finishline
first place say yeah
Yeah
Yeah

TPain feat. Weezy F Baby
Can't Believe It
Thr33 Rings

Now that the Olympics are over and Usian has stole my heart(Shout outs to Seon and Jamaica Mon!), I must say that I am unhappy about Jeremy Wariner getting his ass beat. I done told everybody that Jeremy was gonna win and break a record and now he done went and got a silver medal. WTF?! I was all for Jamaica though cause my boo boo from Jamaica and he's going to the Olympics in 2012 in London. I will be there. I'm not too upset about ol' Felix chick, cause I told everybody she was gonna lose, but no one ever listens to me ya know? Very happy for Sanya. She did great. Was hoping she'd crank a 47/48, but that's beyond me. And Lolo, oh poor baby she lost the race, but it's all good. As for 2012, Nigeria is gonna win and I'm gonna help!!! =) Holla!

I'm Sorry..Am I Too Sexually Moral For You?

2008-08-19T14:16:00.002-04:00

You know sometimes baby I'm so carefree
With a joy thats hard to hide

Then sometimes it seems again that all I have is worry

And then you burn to see my other side

But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good

Oh lord
Please dont let me be misunderstood

Nina Simone

Please Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood

Misunderstood

Take a good look at the picture....ok ok now you can continue reading. So I'm talking to my new found eastside homie (GA DURT N DIS BITCH!!!!lol) and he was telling me no one he knows is looking for a relationship. Not that I'm looking for one either; however, I digress.

Then I explain how I would refuse to have sex with someone that has a girlfriend. Even if I had the chance and if I thought they were super cute and they had some good DING DING because that would infer that I condone acts of infidelity. Which I don't. ;) However it is possible that some time I may have sex with some person that is not committed. Which isn't bad right? I don't believe I'm contradicting myself.

So my eastside nigga tells me I'm a good person and there are not many people in the world that think like me so I'm probably a good catch or something like that.

I begin to wonder, am I just too sexually moral for some people? Is the fact that I won't do it with ol' boy cause he has a girlfriend somewhere in the background a bad thing? I'd like to think most people think like that beforehand and then realize they just don't give a fuck and have sex with whomever they want anyways. If you think about it, if everyone in the world had sexual morals, there wouldn't be so many pregnant girls everywhere with married or just random baby fathers or something like that. Because they think about who and why they are having sex with this person.

Or am I just too sexually selective for you? That's for another post...... =/

Proud Family!!!!

2008-08-19T00:04:00.001-04:00

When you love somebody
Like I love somebody
And when you've been hurt
Like I've been hurt
You'll understand how
Love has it's ups and downs
It's what you make it

JS
Sister
The Johnson Sisters

(not pictured: Azza Thames cause she is never anywhere to be found!)

I LOVE MY SISTERS!!!! They are the best in the world. These girls are the only people that would probably hit up a pole if I needed some money. Except for the one in white, she would just not give it to me. She knows better, lol. And they're the only ones who will listen to my loud ass when I'm yelling for no reason, or if I keep whining about how I want a guy. The one in white and pink know all about that. Or allow me to do stupid things than reprimand me. The one in red is good for that. Anyways, everyone should take the time out to realize their loved ones and always remember the things they do for you. Because you never know when they will not be there that one day. Love you guys!!!!

SMH

2008-08-13T01:17:00.001-04:00

The 3rd Annual Ozone Awards was a REAL experience for me. I'm gonna go through my whole weekend and make it real short, simple, and sweet, cause majority of the time I was SMH.

I get there and couldn't get in touch with anybody for 3 hrs
I get a volunteer pass, being an intern means nothing
VOLUNTEER=STARVING YOURSELF cause they refuse to feed you
Club Barrio was lame & they mark underage with smelly markers
Real people don't walk around the club to be seen
I made alot of money serving drinks to panelists
TJ Chapman is a clown
JB got me and everybody else some food WE WERE HUNGRY!!!
I met Will(SMC)and Killer Mike, Will gave me his 1 and only card
I was bartender the Big Boi listening suite, he's aight
The dinner was nasty as hell, but Slim Thug is a lil cute
Nigga you gay if you have 30 man entourage (Rick Ross and Flo-Rida)
Ace Cool is way too into himself
Shawty Lo is a midget poor baby but he cool as hell
Khaled is a punk not a bitch dude
Nappy Boy listening suite was lame but I like the "Beam Me Up" song
The BBQ was the shit!!! Food was good.
Rock City, Playboy Tre, and BOB are my new best friends
The riders for the dressing rooms were stupid
DeRay is a punk bitch nigga
Lil Boosie got kicked out the hotel room
I had to cuss TJ out to get back in the fuckin building
David Banner fine as hell fuck what everybody else say
Paul Wall is cool
Show started almost two hrs after the fact
Mike Jones got his ass beat no matter who started it
Pimp C's family is beautiful
Bun B's tribute to Pimp C was good even though i missed it
Deray was not very funny
Anybody ever heard of sound check?!
And lastly, there was police brutality(HPD!!!!)
Job well done to Julia and TJ Thanx for everything JB =)
Oh yeah Webbie is cute and he's nice too

Who could ask for anything more but a safe trip back to ATL? Holla if you want specifics, but other than that. Here go the winners:

Ozone Award Winners

BEST RAP ALBUM Rick Ross – Trilla
BEST RAP ARTIST Lil Wayne
BEST R&B ARTIST Chris Brown
BEST RAP GROUP UGK
BEST LYRICIST Lil Wayne
BREAKTHROUGH ARTIST Shawty Lo
BEST RAP/R&B COLLABORATION Usher f/ Young Jeezy "Love In This Club"
CLUB BANGER OF THE YEAR Webbie f/ Lil Boosie & Lil Phat “Independent”
MIXTAPE MONSTER AWARD Trae
MOST SLEPT ON ARTIST Z-Ro
PIMP C AWARD (TRILLEST ARTIST) David Banner
TJ's DJ's HUSTLER AWARD DJ Khaled
TJ's DJ's TASTEMAKER AWARD (Trendsetter in music, fashion/style, etc.)T-Pain
BEST VIDEO UGK f/ Outkast “International Players Anthem”
DJ OF THE YEAR DJ Khaled
BEST MIXTAPE / STREET ALBUM Tie: B.G. & DJ Drama - Gangsta Grillz: Hood Generals Chamillionaire – Mixtape Messiah 3
BEST PRODUCER Polow the Don
BEST RAP ARTIST (WEST COAST) The Game
BEST RAP GROUP (WEST COAST) DPG (Dogg Pound)
BEST RAP ALBUM (WEST COAST) Snoop Dogg “Ego Trippin”
LIVING LEGEND AWARD J Prince
PATIENTLY WAITING: FLORIDA Brisco
PATIENTLY WAITING: GEORGIA B.O.B.
PATIENTLY WAITING: TEXAS Lil Will
PATIENTLY WAITING: MISSISSIPPI Lil C
PATIENTLY WAITING: ALABAMA Jackie Chain
PATIENTLY WAITING: LOUISIANA Mack Maine
PATIENTLY WAITING: TENNESSEE All Star
PATIENTLY WAITING: CAROLINAS Snook Da Rokk Star
PATIENTLY WAITING: KENTUCKY Hurricane
PATIENTLY WAITING: CALIFORNIA The Jacka
PATIENTLY WAITING: ARIZONA Willy Northpole

Bad Attitude

2008-08-05T23:31:00.001-04:00

Each and every time I turn around to leave
I feel my heart begin to burst and bleed
So desperately I try to link it with my head
But instead I fall back to my knees
As you tear your way right through me
I forgive you once again
Without me knowing
You've burnt my heart to stone

Adele
Melt My Heart to Stone
19

I got a bad attitude because of my black heart. The first step is to admit.

This past year has been real terrible for me. I honestly need to start over. Alot of people got on my bad side and I showed my ass at them. I should really know better and practice what I preach. My bad bitchy attitude is coming back to haunt me and bite me in my fat ass. After this week, I realize several things about me need to change.

There are great things about me. The next step is to believe.

After this week's predicaments with different people and me deciding to tell them about themselves, I understand my personality doesn't have to be the way it is. I am the only person that knows why I act the way I do. And it's because of another person. But that's for another day. All I need to do is stop attempting to blame my bad attitude on that person. Because that person has been more than a year and half out of my life. I know that my true kindness, silliness, and positivity can come out. I just need to recollect the shit going on in my life.

Promising myself better character. The last step is to commit.

I know having better character will result in a better lifestyle for me. I just need to work on myself. It's gonna be hard and the process will be long, but it will be worth it. Cause I want the best for myself. =)

Really Doe......

2008-07-31T13:07:00.001-04:00

Just laugh....today is a good day. =)

Everyone's Black In America

2008-07-24T22:05:00.001-04:00

And I turned twenty-one in prison doing life without parole
No-one could steer me right but Mama tried
Mama tried
Mama tried to raise me better
but her pleading
I denied
That leaves only me to blame 'cos Mama tried

Merle Haggard
Mama Tried
For The Record

So of course I got into one of my favorite journalist's documentary, Black in America. Please understand Soledad O' Brian is the shit!!! The thursday night edition was about Black Men. Of course I'm not a Black man, but I was very interested in that. Because I really need to understand what's going on with my babies.

According to her interviews and some statistics, Black men cannot get jobs because they don't know how to dress, are lazy, threatening, and believed to be criminal or violent. Also, men fail to raise their children because of a simple commitment; not a commitment that involves marriage or even dating. A commitment to their child. Next, Black men are either forced to sell drugs or work once they drop out of high school because they are not encouraged to graduate and receive a diploma. Lastly, Black men are subject to being considered a sell out when they want to get 'the hell out' of the hood and into a good living area with a good paying job.

There were several other things, I can't tell you everything. You just gotta watch; however, let's think. Who's to blame for the way Black men are turning out? Some researchers say slavery, some say the drug wars, others say the absence of a father during adolescence.

I'm not gonna go into a whole dispute about what the cause is because the only person who can tell you is a Black Man. I do suggest you watch Soledad O' Brian's lovely documentary Black In America. CNN on 7/26/2008 at 8pm. Love ya, be blessed. =)

Like It's No Tomorrow!!!!

2008-07-21T12:19:00.001-04:00

We gon' stunt, ball, like it's no tomorrow
Hit the mall, buy it all, like it's no tomorrow
Hit the club, party hard, like it's no tomorrow

I'ma live every day like it's no fuckin tomorrow

Rocko
Tomorrow
Self Made

Have you ever felt bad listening to V-103 or HOt 107.9 after church service? Or waking up in the morning to go to church after a long night of drunkenness and intoxication? Well I'm here to tell you that you shouldn't.....and if you still do, that means it's time for a change boo.

My coworker was telling me she went to church one morning and when she returned to her car, she felt a lil' terrible for blasting Gucci Mane. (1st of all, let's not blast our secular music in the church parking lot. Just out of respect for the Lord's grounds.) Anywho, I explained to her that if she feels bad when she listens to her secular music after church and such Godly events, that it's time for her to make THAT CHANGE.

THAT CHANGE is the change you make when you fully except God and refuse to continue a life of partying, drinking heavily, using drugs, cussing, etc. All those things that are ungodly and misrepresenting of the Lord. As young adults, we don't live lives like that because we are afraid of the outcome. Some just don't know where to start. THE CHANGE shows a sign of maturity. If you notice, majority of adults make THIS CHANGE after becoming married and parents and several other happenings. But I believe when the feeling that brings along THAT CHANGE comes, it's beyond you to deny the force of the Lord. Cause denying I feel will only bring negative things into your life. I appreciate and respect those young adults and teens that have made THAT CHANGE. And I hope that they can lead us all to THAT CHANGE. Cause Lord knows in this day and age we all need. So will you stunt like it's no tomorrow, or praise like it's no tomorrow? Godsped. =) Holla!!!!

Tomorrow
who promised you tomorrow
better choose the lord today
for tomorrow very well might be too late.

BeBe Winans
Tomorrow
Album Unknown

What Can You Say?

2008-07-15T16:58:00.001-04:00

Let me plead my case

It's the late 70's Huh

You Seventeen huh

And having me that will ruin everything huh

It's alot of angels waiting on their wings

You see me in your sleep so you cant kill your dreams

Nick Cannon feat. Anthony Hamilton

Can I Live

Stages

I was passing by my lovely GSU campus, only to see the protest that they emailed us about days earlier. Some organization protesting about abortion.

Okay so, I don't have any super strong feelings about abortion except that I don't think you should have more than one for the simple fact it can hurt your body; however, I digress.

I noticed that the organization had children protesting that couldn't be any older than ten. Now I have a serious problem with that because those children have no idea what they are protesting. The adults and parents in the organization are telling these children that abortion is wrong when these children are supposed to grow up and then decide if they are pro-choice or no-choice. I was talking to my friend, and he said he understands why some women have abortions, because they may not be good mothers and this is not a time for bad parenting and he also mentiond rape. I can understand those things, but I can't understand alot of other things, like unprotected sex, hoing around, believing your in love with your boyfriend, things of that nature.

Now I am a christian and I'm sure those people were too, because they had on shirts that had JESUS all over them. What kills me about Christianity is that we are all not on one accord.

Mormons, Muslims, Jews, all of them are on one accord. Christians are so damn confused it's ridiculous; however once again, I digress.

I think that everyone needs to take the time to think what their decision on abortion. Although you may never come to face it, but you may be asked about it and you always what to be able to stand for something. Love you all, babies too. =)

What do you 'Put On' for?

2008-07-09T21:50:00.001-04:00

I put on for my city.

-Young Jeezy feat. Kanye West
Put On
The Recession

When you put on, you basically represent. Putting on is part of your character. Your character displays who you are and what your about. You can put on for anything, but you can't put for everything.

However, when you do PUT ON, you want to put on for something that is meaningful and not careless.

Put on for DARFUR.
Put on for LOWER GAS PRICES.
Put on for THE ELECTION.
Put on for YOUR FAMILY.
Put on for EDUCATION.
Put on for STOPPING THE VIOLENCE.
Put on for YOUR RELIGION.
Put on for YOU.

=)

A Life For Your Life

2008-07-05T15:36:00.002-04:00

If I have to give away...
The feeling that I feel.
If I have to sacrifice...
Oh, whatever babe, whatever baby.
If I have to take apart...
All that I am...
Is there anything that I would not do,

cause inside I'd die without you...

PM Dawn
Die Without You
The Bliss Album

Man On Fire, starring Denzel Washington, Marc Anthony, and Christopher Walken, is a MUST SEE. It's one of my favorite movies and it has a wonderful and thoughtful meaning.

The movie is about a couple in South America with a daughter, Pita. The couple hires Denzel as the Pita's bodyguard and although he is reluctant to be her friend in the beginning, he soons becomes very fond of her. Pita is later kidnapped in a setup by her father, in order for him to get some extra money. Once this is figured out, Denzel tortures and blows up everybody that was involved in any kind of way. When Pita is found out to be alive, Denzel negotiates with the boss of it all.

Boss: The most important thing in life is your family. Do you agree?
Denzel: Yes, I do agree.
Boss: You have most of my family there with you. You know me and my wife are separated?
Denzel: Do you wanna negotiate?
Boss: I will give you her life, for your life.
Denzel: What do you mean? I do not understand.
Boss: I will give you her life for my brother's life and your life.

This movie really got me thinking, in this day and age, with more selfishness going on than selflessness, are people more willing to give up their life for someone else's?

Denzel was not even part of their family, but he felt that he should give up his life for this little girl's life. So could you do it?

Honestly, I think that it comes a point and time where you have to look at everything for its benefits. This was a young girl that has not experienced life and her father set her up to be killed. Denzel's character was in his late 50's, a former CIA assassin and had nothing to live for, but so much to give.

This doesn't have to begin and end with giving your life, but you can give your money and time to anybody or any cause. Just take time out in your day to think about how you can give to someone else in order for someone to think how they can give to you =)

If He Killed Hip Hop, Why Don't You Save It?

2008-07-03T17:30:00.001-04:00

I leaked every song, and I still went platinum

- Soulja Boy
Every Song He Sings!!!!!

Which he did. Let me start from the beginning.

So I had a little bootleg assignment from my internship to review a Soulja Boy Mixtape. I'm somewhat of a SB fan so I felt I could handle it. After listening to it five times over, I realized Soulja Boy was a very fun rapper; however, he had not found himself in the rap game yet.

So after finishing up my review, I came across Ice-T claiming Soulja Boy killed hip hop. The next day, I hear the radio having a discussion if Soulja Boy killed hip hop. Also, the intro to his mixtape was an excerpt from MTV2's Top MCs program, where the ill-credible panel could not decide if Soulja Boy deserved a spot on the top ten list.

Now, I am not here to cosign Soulja Boy's position in the rap game or to claim he's 2007's number one lyricist, but I think people need to understand that he did save hip hop.

He didn't save it single handedly, but it was somewhat saved by him. He even taught others how to continue saving it. Hip Hop has been in a little drought for some years. Can you blame someone for bringing it back up to rankings with other genres? Let's look at the facts(and these numbers do not include Mr. ColliPark purchasing any records or ringtones):

-3 million ringtones
- Certified Gold
- millions of online hits to his myspace, youtube, and other music programs

Is he a genius? Yes. Best rapper alive? No. Critics and several other rappers continue to conclude that he has killed hip hop, but isn't he just giving people what they want? He's making them dance, no white people are complaining about him. He's brought the problems people connect hip hop with down, shouldn't these rappers be happy?!

Of course we all hate the fact that he raps about silliness and shenanigans and he keeps selling, but it's all about giving the people what they want at this point. He can't give them low gas prices, decreased grocery products, or a reduction to the inflation that has come through the mall...but he can give them a reason to dance : ) At least give him that

Let's Make A Pact

2008-06-29T21:08:00.002-04:00

Through my consistent nosiness on FACEBOOK, I've noticed a trend of pregnant college students. Several from my graduating class and some others from other areas of my life.

Is it that your parents are not around, that you must become so insubordinate and do something that you feel they cannot find out about? Or are you that much of a sex fiend that you have to do it with this guy?

There is a group of young girls in high school making pacts to get pregnant and raise their children together. What has the world come to?

I am not belittling pregnant teens at all. I am just suggesting some type of thought process take place before you lay down and have sexual intercourse with someone you think has good dick or will marry you. Cause majority of the time, it is all a lie.

I need to get the memo that has been going around saying pregnancy is cool, fun, or attractive; because if I get it, I just might hop on the bandwagon too!!!!

Maybe there something in the water? Of course abortion should never be an option; however, is it better to be aborted than to be raised in such a bad society where you may never come out of that struggle or environment?

WRAP IT UP!!!!!!

Number One

2008-06-23T13:04:00.001-04:00

You know that I love you, there's no one above you
I said it the last time, but this is the last time
Don't make me over, cuz I can be faithful
Baby you're my number one, you're my number one

-John Legend feat. Kanye West
"Number One"
Get Lifted

Have you ever had a guy tell you that you're #1? To be honest, a girlfriend or beneficial friend or whatever you want to call HER is NEVER #1. She is more than likely #3 or #4. The list, I'd like to believe, goes somewhat like this:

1)Mom
2) Dad
3) Sister
4) Brother
5) You

You can maneuver the list however you wish. But I know I'm close.

So with that said, when this guy told me I was his #1, I knew that was not true. And I was not offended. I should have been though. But I just knew there was no way I was #1 being the belligerent asshole I am, right? lol That what he refers to me as anyways. I just don't see it as possible. : ) However, it is a fact that he was at one time my #1.

WHY?!

I figure it was because I let simple emotions fuck up my priorities, causing me to be mentally fucked up. He beacme my #1, and I kept falling back on his list. Eventually like Nas, I fell off never to recover. But in reality, I realized I didn't want to make a comeback like Janet. : ?

Never make someone your PRIORITY, that make you their OPTION....
it's self-explanatory.

You Think You Got It Bad

2008-06-23T12:15:00.003-04:00

See everything happens for a reason, And the season
Everything happens some place and time
So before the mirror shines
Some people never see the light

-Lyfe Jennings feat. Wyclef Jean
"You Think You've Got It Bad"
Lyfe Change

Clearly I was supposed to write this blog a week ago; however, I digress....

Dreams are very important. My true dream was to be a famed songwriter. I have been writing lyrics since I was 11. I have over 200 songs in my books. I even used to be able to sing at one point and time :p lol

Once I entered college, my dreams of being that songwriter was disappearing and with no support of the career from my Nigerian parents, I felt like I was not gonna get anywhere. That's when I began a life of journalism. Isn't the transition wonderful? =)

My adviser says he thinks I'm a great writer and says I should keep a journal. I've never been a fan of the journal. However, he said I need to get back to writing no matter what. He didn't say how and when but he said it needs to happen. My sister says I need to look at daily things in life and analyze in order to help me write. Which is true....

Lately, with high gas prices and just hard times period, I put everything in my life on hold and just worked myself to death. For the past month I have really been down and out. Always thinking "God, why me? Why do I have to work so hard?!" Not blaming him, just my response to feeling overwhelmed.But something I've learned is that things happen in your life that bring you back to what your purpose is. People can come into your life for a second and make a life changing move for you.

One late night at a cheshire bridge gas station, I put $3.00 in my gas tank and hoped for a safe ride home. :/ Of course the obvious happened, I locked my keys in the car. Thank God I did=)

Akon Thiam, International entertainer, pulled up to the gas station, stayed with me for over thirty minutes, and broke into my car. He really got HUMAN on me. I couldn't believe it. A person who is loved by many, hated by some, and stalked by others (lol) took time out of his night with another female to help me. This is a person I have put on pedestal and admired because of everything he's done positive. Forget the negative crap!!!! He came off that pedestal and helped me.

I know this may seem groupie to some, but this encounter with Akon honestly brought me back to where I need to be. I have something write about!!!!! And I thank you for reading it. Some people go through life with a dream, sit it to the side, and never get back to it because of other obligations that don't make them happy like their dream would. Don't let that happen to you.

Like Sankofa, we must go back and reclaim our past, so we can move forward.

Be not afraid of greatness!!!!!!!